Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Easier said than done

"And then one day, I'll cross the river, I'll fight life's final war with pain... And then as death gives way to victory, I'll see the lights of glory and I'll know he lives"

As we were singing these lyrics this past Sunday, I had to take a moment to reflect... to look back and smile, and well up at the same time. I have tried so many times in the past 4 months to put words together to help explain the way I felt as I watched my mom pass away. It has been so difficult to not have her here, to not have her around so that I know that at least someone understands the ridiculous joke I just told, or whatever... Those words have continued to escape me, but as I truly look at her passing and as I remove myself from the situation, and allow myself to be simply an observer of the human condition, I am reminded of one thing.

At the moment of my mom's passing,there was a look of peace and contentment on her face. I remember at the time thinking it looked as though there was a smile on her face... my mother's smile is something I will never forget, it was such a piece of her, and tying it to these lyrics, I can only imagine what she saw at this moment in her life. She had truly waged war against pain, and she had allowed death to give way to victory... her faith became sight. She saw firsthand the truly incomprehensible majesty of Heaven.

God is greater than whatever battle you are facing, and victory over all trials can only truly be found in Him. We must only remember that it is not up to us to define victory, or to place the definition of a miracle into a box. We cannot allow ourselves to believe that God has failed us simply because the outcome of something in our lives is not what we wanted... we should desire His will in all situations. Easier said than done